Urbanication
Hello Dolly!
BEING RANDOM
Dec 9th
It’s been some times I hide myself from writing blog because I came to the dissapointment that some people are being offensive reading it. But, from my own point of view I would probably think that this is something really public so basically the topics that I am writing about are all generally about myself. I decided to write something back here again because I had too much to express whereby no one is there to lend me their ears.
I always trying to picture myself in the future, when I look at my mom I saw my reflection in the coming years. Sometimes when I look at my mom, the wrinkles, the fine lines are every single sacrifices made to what she is today. I can proudly says that I am so thankful to have my mom. She always take good care of me, she always be my best companion, she always be someone who will stand on myside to protect me. When my parents are off to other country for leisure purpose, I felt lonely. Things always happen in that way, when everything seems to be perfect we do not appreciate. When we lose it someday we would be crazily feeling sorry. Even for now, I can’t imagine myself without my mom around. I started becaming so lazy to wake up early in the morning knowing no one would go for breakfast with me sigh. Thats make me realize how much I love and need my mom 
I guess I was really stressful last month. I shouted in the middle of the road, thinking of the problems with everyone around me, trying to “analyse” every single problem (infact, I’m not any super professional analyst). Most probably I just love judging book by its cover. I’m seriously hating myself to the maximum wtf. Porbably one of the worst human on earth. I stressfully wanna slap myself to death.
A WOMAN
Nov 2nd
The journey of the woman,
A great marathon in life,
A journey that will not be easy to walk,
Walking with bare foot,
With an empty hand,
Where there will be disagreement in between,
A lot of commitment,
And grumbles, complains,
With ignorance the path are still being continued,
To bring the legency of a great person and mind,
Along the way,
With patches and hurtful body,
Having the real opinion and person,
On the way walking,
meeting the King,
with selfishness and all numb feeling,
the day where legency created,
the day where a person who has strong mind and body,
the day where a person who builts confident,
the day where a person who dare to dream!
THE IMPORTANT OF SAVINGS
Oct 20th
Some points to gear up for what lies ahead:
- Plan how much is needed to be save, Calculate how much to be spend, Execute the plan, Follow up the progress!
- EPF – is good to keep track of the statement every 3 months. A very useful tools to help up in financial planning. At the end of the year, dividen is given based on the amount in the account.
- Expenses Tracking - Record every single cents used everyday. Keep receipts for reference in the future. Every 3 months, review back the money spent and get it trimmed on the non-necessary expenses.
- Stretch investment – Maintain the sum allocation in any account, place in Fixed Deposit (FD) to earn the interest as well as unit trust. These bonds doens’t bring back too much return but do not hesitate to keep track as it will grow more and more based on the interest rate!
- Avoid Plastic Money – Spent only on items that are being used or really urge for daily necessities. DO NOT spend on credit card before paying back the debts as the 18% of interest charges can pull you to whole life of debts.
- Rainy Days – It is extremely important to stretch out rainy days expenses especially there’s sudden inflation. Save at least expenses for half a year just in case of the six month of unemployment.
- Realistic Goals – Let’s be realistic. You wanna retire in 40 years old, send your children to oversea for education and etc. Start it from young. You want those unrealistic dream that you might be a billionaire someday.
- Goals – Short-terms goal would probably settling off credit card debts and go for a short vacation, Mid-terms goals would probably needed to invest in Fixed Deposit as well as unit trust, Long-term goals is engaging in retirement plan that would provide you a comfortable retirement.
On Relationship
Oct 19th
When it comes to relationships, sometimes I am frustrated. Certainly there’s a lot of relationship that can be created throughout the whole journey of life. But mainly the relationship I was trying to say is family relationship and boy-girl relationship.
Family relationship always is the most miserable one. It create more tense that usual or perhaps more harmonic than ever. I’d always love watching home-type drama. From there, I can learn so many lessons than in reality life. A percentage of families are building up relationship that typically so close to each other. Whereby there share every single things in life. Or maybe when they need somebody to talk to, family is always there, stood the first place in their mind. But a portion of family had never finish disagree of each other in their life. I came from a middle-income family. Money issue became such a big tense years back. How much is much? I don’t know. I always tried getting an answer for this question. Nevertheless, money is crucial but money has no limitation. Money could bring us down and makes us happy.
My siblings and I wasn’t creating a good relationship ever since we’re way different in school. Probably due to the gap of me and my elder brother, we have little topic to discuss. I always believe that a man should solely concentrate on pursuing a good career before getting ready into family business. That is why in today, we still have a lot of bachelor around but all stood a successful name in industry. Back to the story, I was really saddened by all the act of my own brother hurting everyone feeling including the parents. Who are we without the parents? He was nevertheless one good man in front of his girlfriend. But the tolerance of being his girlfriend would probably exceed the limit. Woman needs love from everyone but most guys only need sex.
On the other hand, my younger brother is someone who lives happily like no one in this world. Pathetically, this is something good because you wouldn’t have been thinking so many dramas in life. I envy his life for being so simple. However, every act has its pros and cons. Since young, I always thought of giving him everything good that I got. We created a very harmonious relationship between us. It sounds like we are the best siblings ever, but as time flies things changed. It wasn’t that same anymore because the path we’re going slowly determined our own life. Each of us started to know what we want and how to pursue. He’s being a little naïve sometimes, but who don’t. Even my myself is naïve when it comes to some illusions that probably takes time to became reality or maybe in the whole life it just appear to be fantasy world.
Lastly, I found this conversation very meaningful to be share.
Pencil: I’m sorry
Eraser: For what? You didn’t do anything wrong.
Pencil: I’m sorry cos you get hurt bcos of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you’re always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time.
Eraser: That’s true. But I don’t really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I’ll be gone and you’ll replace me with a new one, I’m actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad.
I found this conversation between the pencil and the eraser very inspirational. Parents are like the eraser whereas their children are the pencil. They’re always there for their children, cleaning up their mistakes. Sometimes along the way… they get hurt, and become smaller (older, and eventually pass on). Though their children will eventually find someone new (spouse), but parents are still happy with what they do for their children, and will always hate seeing their precious ones worrying, or sad.
“All my life, I’ve been the pencil.. And it pains me to see the eraser that is my parents getting smaller and smaller each day. For I know that one day, all that I’m left with would be eraser shavings and memories of what I used to have…”
This is to all the parents out there…
10-10-10 FATAL ACCIDENT
Oct 12th
I was reading the newspaper early in the morning to keep myself updated about the road incident of KM223 PLUS highway near Simpang Ampat. It drew my attention for this ill-fated incident involved two express buses and three sedan car. Probably this is the most fatal ever incident happened in this year. In fact, I was in the massive traffic on the way back from Singapore exactly the same day of the incident. Without any idea what was going on in the middle of the bad traffic, I continue my nap. Upon reaching home as early as 3 in the morning I then realized it was this incident.
Most of the deceased are mainly youngster, where they are still fresh graduates as well as first time travelled on long journey with bus. My heart feel pretty depressed reading this. Especially when I view the photographs showed online. Blood is pouring everywhere, broken arms at the other side of the road, body flung out from the buses and some bodies whom are sandwiched between buses and cars. This really scared me to hell. I just can’t dare to speed more than 110km/h anymore. It happened on the 10 of October in which we believed that this is an auspicious date that happen only once in every hundred years. Is it true that doomed day is getting nearer every day?
The whole incident reminds me of my cousin who passed away because of the same old reason two years back. I just don’t understand why bus driver need to speed like Ferrari when they don’t have a Ferrari engine. Perhaps, why are they not being considerate? They would have understood that little meant something to everyone. I believed that government will investigate on the reason behind the incident, but that couldn’t brought back twelve people life. What about those who are still in incentive care unit? Gosh, I just can’t imagine how their parents would feel like.
Now, everyone starts to point at each other, blaming every party that involved. What is the point since this couldn’t bring back their life? The most concerned part about the whole story is to take appropriate actions. Sleepy, reckless, drunk, speeding are not to be said as cause. Think of others, think of ourselves! I shall pray for the other whom is still in incentive care units. Rest in peace, god shall bring thee to better place. Amen
A PET STORY
Oct 6th
I was sitting on a coach with my pet, Joey at noon just right after I clean the floor. He innocently looks at me, trying to nag me. I was terribly exhausted that I totally ignored him. After several minutes I felt bad so I was trying to guess what does he want, is he feeling hungry? Probably not! I tried shoving my hand on his head he came even nearer to my thighs. It’s like a sign of wanting more attention. How could pet act like a child, oh gosh! Then, I gently rub on his tummy (in which a lot of pets likes that) he lie down on the spot with tummy facing upwards. Sometimes, I wondered pet knew what they want from the loves one. But did human being understand what each other want?
AXILLARIS IN PROGRESS
Oct 5th
We pay a visit to the construction site of Axillaris on last sunday. It has finally in 40% progress of completion. On the exterior it looks almost done, on the other hand in interior part seems like there’s a lot more to go.. 
Although it still take more than a year to complete, but I feel like I’m running out of time. I desperately need to save more cash for renovation as the renovation part is all cash on delievery.
#1 The exactly view of the house, front part. The color combination looks alright for now. But maybe in the future, I would prefer to paint it brown or white as it place a more classy look. The width seems to be good enough for two car to park side by side. Without dissapointment there’s still a little 10″ space for Joey to move around. 
#2 The view of the side of the house, throughout the back. It is a linked house therefore there will be no space for backyard but it has been replaced at the side of the house. Yea, the height of the shown brick was a little dissapointment which means the additional height of the wall is part of the renovation. Meanwhile, the cemented area were planned to be the wet kitchen. Because the space is an issue, we are forced to make good use of it.
#3 Finally, the view of the master bedroom. I shamefully admit that I really love it! I am going to decorate and place the best in the room! HEHEHE, can’t wait but now I have to back to the reality, work triple hard to collect cash!
ONE IN A MILLION
Oct 5th
There are times where I wish my life could be little easier, or perhaps more perfectly done than the present. Not that I doesn’t like my life or whatever it takes now, but sometimes I would had the thoughts that how other people whom are better than me are living their life up to the maximum but also those who live slightly unfortunate than me. I would become so thankful for having whatever it is.
At the 80s, my parents used to live in a small town in which they only survive by having small portion of meal for more than ten people at home. At that time, life was really struggling. Everything seems to be so different. Having no internet life, living a little luxury than before are example of things changed. I would prefer staying in the womb of my mom in which I somehow feel this would probably be my safest place ever.
I always felt appreciated for what I am having now, not only material wise but person who appeared in my life. It’s like a piece of gold found in the middle of the jungle. I am trying to learn my very best every day for every single thing in life. I believed that a person needs to have the sufficient amount of knowledge no matter where they go. People who are not equipped with knowledge immediately are the one who act without thinking. I always love studying. No matter it’s about reading or attending lectures. Therefore, I’d never missed my class when I used to be in college. I just feel good holding a book with me. Some people say this is crazy, especially student. Who like to study? Come on, this is just life. We would rather play hard than study hard.
However, environment changed. We need to act by thinking, to make full use of our brain which is the gift from god. People whom I knew for years are “selling” themselves in the market. They treat themselves like a brand in order to gain some reputation from the others. From days to days, I see how much they hard sell themselves in order to be a powerful person in that particular industry. Is that a necessary or isn’t that too much? Perhaps, celebrity needs publicity so in order to become a “celebrity” you always need to do some publicity.
It’s been my wish to write down about what I am going to do if I have one million. But today, one million is nothing anymore in this materialistic world. Or shall I say, million is just a finger tips for some youngster where a number of people successfully achieve they one million just before they reach their 30s. Therefore I decided to change it to what I will do if I have MULTI millions. This probably will only happen in my dream. Yet I knew we wouldn’t know what will happen tomorrow. It might happen to be I strike a lottery or I got a chance to earn triple times of my salary, I don’t know. But we have to be realistic that money is impossible to drop from skies, it is a must to hard earn in order to get money in return.
If I have million, the first thing that came into my mind will definitely be donating some to the less fortunate. The percentage of less fortunate in the world has always won over the percentage of people who are well-to-do. Therefore giving them a helping hand is a must to do. Even a small amount will contribute a lot in their daily life.
Next, I will get a bungalow for my family. I always love staying under one roof, with all cares and less lonesome. It would be perfect if it comes with a swimming pool as my two brothers love swimming. I have to admit that it will be great if it comes with a huge family hall where the meeting point is. Last but not least, having a greenish garden is a must. I’m pretty sure that greenish environment always helps us in energizing good energy, do you?
Oh well, the next things that I would always please to have is a seven seater car. The one that came into my mind would always be Toyota Alphard. As the size is huge and wide enough, the matter of fitting each and everyone will definitely not a problem. On the interior, I like it leather as well as own individual seats. This car seems to be the century luxury seven seater car that is a must to own..
